Ellen's E-mail

Posted on June 14, 2010 12:00 am by Veronica

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My older siblings, James and Cass, stayed for two months after my mom's operation. When my mom regained her strength, we did what every family does every time a balikbayan comes home: We went to Tagaytay, SM Mall of Asia, and Bonifacio High Street, and we ate tuyo (dried fish) every morning, as per my sister's request.

I was so busy catching up with James and Cass that I hardly logged on to YM or checked my e-mails in those two months. When my siblings went back to the States and I returned to work after that much-needed vacation, my friends kept me busy by retelling the story of how I made a scene at the hospital, collapsed, and woke up on my mom's bed at the hospital.

That was how I missed it.

And of course, there was a terrifying backlog of work to be done at the office. So instead of watching more reruns of Veronica Mars or chatting with Jai and Sam, I found myself buried in digital campaigns, website mock-ups, banner ads, and viral videos that needed copy.

That was how I missed it.

I remember having the same dream for several nights in a row. Twice, I woke up before reaching the door, but there was this particular night when I woke up in a silent scream. I remember it vividly because I knocked down my favorite antique lamp shade that night.

It was the same dream. Only this time, I managed to get to the door before I woke up in a terrible scream that went unheard by everyone but me. In my dream, there was another Sam standing on the other side of the door. He was also wearing the same Ninoy Aquino shirt, the same pants, the same sneakers, and the same black ponytail. I looked from one Sam to another. They were both smiling.

And then I woke up sweating like a pig. Ana! I thought.

It was only then that I realized that I hadn't heard from Sam for nearly two months. I checked my phone, YM, and e-mails but there were no messages from him except for an e-mail from a girl who had the same surname.

I clicked on the e-mail from the girl named Ellen (Sam's surname deleted). The message was sent almost five days ago. That was how the devastating news hit me.

And that was how I almost missed it. I spent the next 24 hours in denial. I called Charlie over, and when the rest of my friends heard the news, they were as skeptical as I was when I first read Ellen's e-mail. But when Jai went to San Diego himself and then called us personally, my friends and I spent the entire weekend in vigil.

And when Monday came, I broke down again.

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  eieioow
  28. gosh what happen???im dying to read the next blog...bitin naman...
  June 15, 2010 at 08:41 pm report abuse
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  Santori01
  27. what happen to Sam?
  June 15, 2010 at 03:58 pm report abuse
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  shatteredframe
  26. omg. pakiramdam ko namatay si sam!
  June 15, 2010 at 05:24 am report abuse
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  adellecristine
  25. did sam die? i wanna cry...
  June 15, 2010 at 05:19 am report abuse
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  mmmanila
  24. I think the news have something to do with your dreams. Right V? Next na please as in now na hehehe...
  June 15, 2010 at 03:06 am report abuse
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  myles_away
  23. huhuhu what happened to Sam, V?
  June 15, 2010 at 02:42 am report abuse
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  maloupedroso
  22. i sense trouble. oohh oh!
  June 15, 2010 at 12:12 am report abuse
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  pinkyLisciouschic21
  21. VigiL?!!no..pLs not Sam..pLs..pLs...
  June 14, 2010 at 11:42 pm report abuse
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  annie1003
  20. what happend to sam?
  June 14, 2010 at 10:14 pm report abuse
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  chrysjan
  19. oh no! anong nangyari?!?
  June 14, 2010 at 09:05 pm report abuse
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  adrenalinejunkie
  18. hmm..is ellen is the wife of sam back in states? i thought...
  June 14, 2010 at 07:08 pm report abuse
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  angel_love_song
  17. did ana go the states and force him into a marriage? what? what? we're hanging by a thread, v!
  June 14, 2010 at 06:43 pm report abuse
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  foreverkath
  16. hala what happened to sam? :(
  June 14, 2010 at 06:33 pm report abuse
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  chummybrat82
  15. nagkabalikan at nagpakasal na sila nung pig?
  June 14, 2010 at 02:48 pm report abuse
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  vogue
  14. omg no!!!!
  June 14, 2010 at 12:56 pm report abuse
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  krismay0120
  13. something happeed to Sam? oh my god... be strong V!
  June 14, 2010 at 12:13 pm report abuse
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  kissess
  12. waht happend to sam?
  June 14, 2010 at 11:13 am report abuse
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  eemiaj1016
  11. oh sam!!!!!!!!!!!!no!
  June 14, 2010 at 08:30 am report abuse
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  yanipot
  10. Oh no! What hapened to Sam??? :(
  June 14, 2010 at 08:25 am report abuse
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  loveme.hateme
  9. hey what happened?
  June 14, 2010 at 07:29 am report abuse
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  lavfifth
  8. who's Ellen?what happened?
  June 14, 2010 at 06:58 am report abuse
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  ic3
  7. ano nangyari? omg don't tell me na nagpakasal si ana at sam? wehhh di nga imposible.
  June 14, 2010 at 05:06 am report abuse
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  ms.camille
  6. oh no..wait..no.. what happened to Sam? i hope what im thinking is wrong..
  June 14, 2010 at 01:51 am report abuse
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  mimipots
  5. oh no!!! this can't be... please wag naman sana..:( nooooo!!!!!
  June 14, 2010 at 01:43 am report abuse
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  pinkyLisciouschic21
  4. vigiL?..oh no..pLs dont teLL me..=(
  June 14, 2010 at 12:44 am report abuse
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  sherdhy
  3. shocks...what's next..
  June 14, 2010 at 12:21 am report abuse
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  zne_juson
  2. what happened?! kabitin naman... :(
  June 14, 2010 at 12:16 am report abuse
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  ya1mma9y
  1. What happened to Sam? :(
  June 14, 2010 at 12:15 am report abuse

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