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The truth hit me.

Those kilig to the bones gestures Logan did for me in the beginning were all my doing! I was the brains behind the movement. I was the director and the scriptwriter of the whole damn scheme. Logan did all the things I listed, yes, but only because I told him to; not that he wouldn't do it, of course, but I didn't give him the chance to show me how he could be romantic in his own terms.

I did see that he was committed to me, that he would go to great lengths for me, but I couldn't shake the guilt of now realizing how I had manipulated him. What I did was a double-edged sword: I saw his commitment but I didn't get to know the man. And the most frustrating part of it all is how everyone around me seems to have figured him out already. Kung sino pa 'yung girlfriend, siya pa 'yung nahuli.

And then Charlie spoke, "You know what? I think the reason you feel nagsasawa ka na sa ganitong mga lugar is quite simple."

"What?"

She smiled. "You don't want to be here," she said.

"You want to be somewhere else," she continued. "I mean, this lifestyle doesn't interest you anymore because you already know what you want and who you want to be with. Wala ka na sa search mode. 'Di ka na Google. Wikipedia ka na. Finally!"

Ignoring Charlie's attempt at humor, I was astounded by the simplicity of it all.

That's it? I thought. Ganon lang ka-simple 'yung solusyon?

Sometimes, the truth just hits you in face. And if you're lucky like me, you'll find that (as most love stories often preach) the one you're searching for has always been in right front of you.

I didn't know where to start, really. Because the answers came to me just like that. I finally saw how loving, generous, and trusting my boyfriend is (he's still my boyfriend, right?). I finally realized how shallow I was for not seeing past his failed romantic attempts, how selfish I was not to appreciate his generosity, and how stupid I was for putting him on hold just so I could chase a stupid memory.

"You'll feel blessed to be with him," Charlie said after a while. "He's man enough to determine the things you need. He's man enough to take care of things. And he's man enough to make sure everything's well taken care of. I can see he's gonna be a good provider. Every woman wants to be the wife of that kind of man."

It was, perhaps, the sweetest thing I've ever heard a friend say about my partner and it was, ultimately, what I needed to understand before I destroyed one of the best things that has ever happened to me. That night, after we polished off our platter of fried goods and Charlie finished the rest of the beer I didn't touch, I dropped her off at her condo and went home, giddy with the thought of surprising Logan the next day.

But that didn't happen. Fate intervened through a desperate call for help from Nicia.

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