BEDROOM BLOG BY VERONICA
Silence Falls After His Big Reveal
Posted on September 7, 2009 12:00 am by
Veronica
Silence could mean a lot of things. It could mean yes or no. Or maybe.
Silence could also mean “Wait, I’m thinking.”
Silence.
It’s been two full weeks now since Eastwood. Dee and Claire declared a holiday on their bad cop and bad cop routine after two straight days of trying to get me to talk, smile, rant, or, God forbid, blink goo-goo eyes again. Even our normally loud HR officer feigned laryngitis when all the confusion and irritation registered on my face the week following Eastwood.
It ended just like any other date. We watched the soft rain in silence, sipped coffee automatically, and stood up when it’s time to go. He drove zombie-like toward our house in Quezon City and pecked my cheeks before he drove away…as I looked out in the pouring rain.
I never explained the sudden change in temperature (and on my Friday Dress-Down Attire for that matter) to Dee or Claire. I never shared with them what Matt told me. How could I ever make them understand, anyway? Taking a page from Dee’s mindset, there was nothing between us. Nada. Zilch. Ergo, I shouldn’t be feeling hurt…right?
But I do and I can’t explain it. And his silence irritated me even more. He loves Stacy until now, that’s not difficult to understand; so where do I stand? Did we even date? Or was it an innocent get-together of old friends? What was the kiss all about?
Days passed without a word from him. I tried (because I must) busy myself with work. Two full campaigns and product launches were enough to steer my murderous creativity toward something else…for a while. Dee used my frozen state to her advantage and had gotten used to dropping design deliverables on my work station every hour on the hour. And Claire, who recently found out that I am a Journalism graduate, started asking me to help her with copywriting because, as she puts it, “Kailan ka pa magsisimula magsulat, day?!”
Angst, as I have learned, is good motivation for writing.
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Silence could also mean “Wait, I’m thinking.”
Silence.
It’s been two full weeks now since Eastwood. Dee and Claire declared a holiday on their bad cop and bad cop routine after two straight days of trying to get me to talk, smile, rant, or, God forbid, blink goo-goo eyes again. Even our normally loud HR officer feigned laryngitis when all the confusion and irritation registered on my face the week following Eastwood.
It ended just like any other date. We watched the soft rain in silence, sipped coffee automatically, and stood up when it’s time to go. He drove zombie-like toward our house in Quezon City and pecked my cheeks before he drove away…as I looked out in the pouring rain.
I never explained the sudden change in temperature (and on my Friday Dress-Down Attire for that matter) to Dee or Claire. I never shared with them what Matt told me. How could I ever make them understand, anyway? Taking a page from Dee’s mindset, there was nothing between us. Nada. Zilch. Ergo, I shouldn’t be feeling hurt…right?
But I do and I can’t explain it. And his silence irritated me even more. He loves Stacy until now, that’s not difficult to understand; so where do I stand? Did we even date? Or was it an innocent get-together of old friends? What was the kiss all about?
Days passed without a word from him. I tried (because I must) busy myself with work. Two full campaigns and product launches were enough to steer my murderous creativity toward something else…for a while. Dee used my frozen state to her advantage and had gotten used to dropping design deliverables on my work station every hour on the hour. And Claire, who recently found out that I am a Journalism graduate, started asking me to help her with copywriting because, as she puts it, “Kailan ka pa magsisimula magsulat, day?!”
Angst, as I have learned, is good motivation for writing.
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Tags: bedroom blog,veronica,Matt,stacy,silence,reveal,writing,angst,hurt,confusion
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24. been there,done that V..
April 24, 2010 at 09:25 am report abuse -
23. It's very complicated. Love is very complicated.
March 07, 2010 at 04:28 pm report abuse -
22. si Matt na mushroom! >:(
February 17, 2010 at 02:33 pm report abuse -
21. Angst, as I have learned, is good motivation for writing.- i agree with you. :)
February 06, 2010 at 10:58 am report abuse -
20. @shirley: i was confused at that time, yes
February 05, 2010 at 09:57 pm report abuse -
19. So V you're confused and jealous right?
February 05, 2010 at 09:55 pm report abuse -
18. I just can't stand too much silence and guys like Matt na lulubog lilitaw kung kelan nya gusto.
February 03, 2010 at 12:39 am report abuse -
17. silence is a form of therapeutic communication.. in psychiatric patients that is. hehe..
January 28, 2010 at 10:18 pm report abuse -
16. i dunno V. if i were you when matt told me about stacy, may be a get jealous. but then again, past is past... or may bec she change matt one way or another. di ba matt likes to fling but after stacy, 2 yrs syang walang gf.
January 27, 2010 at 08:28 am report abuse -
15. what's up with the sudden disappearance. boo matt!
January 23, 2010 at 12:20 pm report abuse -
14. Matt is an idiot! Bigla siya magiging ganun napagusapan lang si Stacey?
January 23, 2010 at 03:50 am report abuse -
13. guys are naturally jerks sometimes.. phew!
January 08, 2010 at 07:45 pm report abuse -
12. dba matt is afraid to be hurt again? kaya un ganun!
January 08, 2010 at 02:43 pm report abuse -
11. @summerinparis128: i know right, it's like putting out the bait, then we bite, then they will disappear. leche! hahaha. :P
January 02, 2010 at 12:32 am report abuse -
10. oops..affected?
January 01, 2010 at 02:18 pm report abuse -
9. It's really hard to predict kung ano un tumatakbo sa minds ng Guys especially after nilang mgconfide.Tas biglang whoa! di n mgpaparamdam. It's difficult kc you don't know where you stand.
December 25, 2009 at 05:44 am report abuse -
lily8. sunugin na si matt!
September 21, 2009 at 06:12 pm report abuse -
Honey1217. oo nga daphne! it's soo annoying!
September 21, 2009 at 06:12 pm report abuse -
6. asar talaga mga boys...after the date.. no hi or hello man lang.... its like they quit existing... then, parang mga mushrooms na bifla na lang lalabas
September 19, 2009 at 11:01 am report abuse -
PaTriCia_Honeybun5. yeah andrea, nangyari na sakin yan ilang beses na. the date went well, may spark, pero ayun after the date, no text for 2 days straight, asar talaga!
September 18, 2009 at 10:09 am report abuse -
aNdRea144. i hate the feeling na di mo alam what happened at tumahimik sila. gah!
September 14, 2009 at 03:53 pm report abuse -
Trish3. Sinabi nyo pa! I don't understand why di sila nagpaparamdam when the date obviously went well naman. Labo!
September 14, 2009 at 11:12 am report abuse -
PaTriCia_Honeybun2. me too! sarap nila sapakin!
September 10, 2009 at 02:44 pm report abuse -
Gina1. I hate it kapag biglang hindi magpaparamdam yung guy after a date!! grrr
September 10, 2009 at 02:24 pm report abuse
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