"There's A Fine, Fine Line Between Love And A Waste Of Time..."

Posted on January 22, 2010 12:00 am by Veronica

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I should have taken that as an omen, a warning, a red alert, but I didn't. I had no idea that tonight, all the fine lines protecting my sanity would be broken in a single strike.

How I wish I had ditched Franco right after the play ended. If only I made a mad dash out of the theater and into the cold Makati night, I wouldn't have seen them. But I did.

He was wearing a brown shirt underneath a black jacket, khaki pants, and a pair of white Nike sneakers. He was sporting a shorter version of the same hairstyle and the same confident swagger just like the time I first saw him in Greenbelt after five long years.

And yet...there was something different about him. Gone were the manly stubble and dark aura. Instead, he looked like a man with a renewed sense of purpose...a man reborn...a man with a significant other.

She came from somewhere near the left side of the small auditorium. She was wearing the simplest pair of skinny jeans and the simplest green shirt. Her face bore no sign of make-up, not even a hint of lip balm, and her hair was tied in the simplest of ponytails. And yet, despite being a Plain Jane in an ocean of eccentric people, she had the air of an artist, of submissiveness, of nonchalance.

I stood there, stunned as the scene was unfolding right before me. She walked demurely to where Matt was standing and subtly took his hand. They walked to the souvenir table just as the cast arrived at the lobby. Carla Guevara was singing a few lines from Kate Monster's single, "There's a fine, fine line."

I didn't think he saw me. My feet retreated to the more secluded area, while my friend, Franco, took some photos for the review he would be writing. I just stood there and pondered how irony could be my middle name. Her face was so familiar because she was no stranger...I had seen her before. Her name was Gia, my ex-boyfriend's previous girlfriend. Destiny sure has a wicked sense of irony.

It rained on our way home.

"What a tangled web I weave," I thought. "You win. I give up."

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  eemiaj1016
  70. small world V..
  May 28, 2010 at 10:25 am report abuse
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  eieioow
  69. t0inkz.... ayun na un.... it hurts but that's the reality...
  May 18, 2010 at 12:21 am report abuse
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  lavfifth
  68. nye..kung kelan gusto mung mgisip isip dun mu pa nkita..atlst npdalie pgddcide mu..
  May 10, 2010 at 04:00 am report abuse
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  lalabong
  67. i still love the feeling of in love.
  March 31, 2010 at 06:28 pm report abuse
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  lalabong
  66. love makes you happy and sad.
  March 31, 2010 at 06:27 pm report abuse
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  lalabong
  65. OMG! I feel for you V! Forget Matt na!
  March 08, 2010 at 07:10 am report abuse
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  sexybebe
  64. oh..i hope matt had the balls to tell you he's dating another girl na :(
  February 24, 2010 at 02:43 pm report abuse
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  milaniecandido
  63. as an omen, a warning, a red alert
  February 08, 2010 at 10:36 pm report abuse
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  shirleylim26
  62. What a small world! I can't believe how Matt has left just like that. He did not think of the memories you've shared together. He does not have feelings for you V. So sad!
  February 07, 2010 at 10:55 pm report abuse
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  handpaintedsky
  61. small world..
  February 07, 2010 at 04:35 pm report abuse
• malou
  60. *fainted i hate you matt. i hate you.
  February 03, 2010 at 10:34 pm report abuse
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  veronica11
  59. @rinaluv: i'll give you his address. please tear him to pieces. *wishing thinking*
  February 02, 2010 at 11:14 pm report abuse
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  rinaluv
  58. this entry breaks my heart into trillion pieces and i wanna kill matt pronto!
  February 02, 2010 at 03:02 am report abuse
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  fishbowl84
  57. grabe such a small world!!! waaahhhh that is sooo painful! i dont like na :(
  January 30, 2010 at 10:03 pm report abuse
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  fishbowl84
  56. it's actually not a fine line, it's a thick line, but when we're in love.. we don't really see it. hehe
  January 30, 2010 at 10:01 pm report abuse
• bam
  55. its sad in a way but be thankful at least nakita mo. Much better sana kung sinabi ni Matt para fair at maayos.
  January 29, 2010 at 09:33 pm report abuse
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  joyfulmom
  54. haaay,kakalungkot bat life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what youre gonna get
  January 29, 2010 at 05:02 pm report abuse
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  miss_techylicious
  53. yup. love = sam and your friendly, trusted friends while matt is a waste of time.
  January 28, 2010 at 03:01 pm report abuse
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  mamaii26
  52. bilog ang mundo!!
  January 27, 2010 at 05:21 pm report abuse
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  shirleylim26
  51. If you are in a relationship and you feel bored and exhausted it simply means that you have fallen out of love. If you still love yourself it would be better to speak out and explain what you feel about it. It is not right to stay in a relationship just because you are trying to find the same old feeling when you first got together. Just face the truth. You can't love other people if you don't know how to love yourself.
  January 27, 2010 at 02:27 pm report abuse
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  jhe_1212
  50. 50. Nu ba yan, super small world nman...
  January 26, 2010 at 03:01 pm report abuse
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  veronica11
  49. @Hazelnutzy: Awww...you've been with me since college kaya alam mo story ko. Fate sure had fun with me diba? But look at me now (see you on the 30th!)...now i know why it never worked out with anyone else. :)
  January 25, 2010 at 02:59 pm report abuse
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  hazelnutzy
  48. Haay, but seriously, I can't see why fate has always managed to play tricks on you V. hehehe. If you know what I mean. :P
  January 25, 2010 at 01:47 pm report abuse
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  toughgurl
  47. for real? awww. i thought there will be happy ending with matt.=|
  January 24, 2010 at 08:28 pm report abuse
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  veronica11
  46. @cza921: thanks so much! im glad my blogs comfort you in a way, i hope i can inspire you to be strong din. ;)
  January 24, 2010 at 01:37 am report abuse
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  jhinggay19
  45. pero sana naman si Matt eh nagpaka man enough to tell V about it..
  January 24, 2010 at 12:03 am report abuse
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  len9
  44. that sucks.:( but at least now u know the reason for his silence and all.. but this really hurts.
  January 23, 2010 at 03:03 pm report abuse
• cza921
  43. oh, you don't know how much comfort i get from reading your blog. just knowing that i'm not alone in this eases up the pain even just a bit. and yeah, those happily ever afters? we've all been brainwashed that way. :(
  January 23, 2010 at 04:38 am report abuse
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  andromeda81405
  42. ouch na bonggang-bongga! but atleast V, d kna left hanging at alam mo na totoo reason nya for his silence.. ung matt ko nga ngayon, best friend ko pa ung nililigawan, good thing she's a real friend and had to say no.. whew!
  January 23, 2010 at 01:38 am report abuse
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  veronica11
  41. To everyone: Yeah, it sucks because we all move in the same circles, no matter how hard i try to expand mine, the writers' pool is still very small. but of all girls, bakit yung ex ng ex ko pa diba? tsk tsk. kung di ba naman talaga ako pinagtitripan ng tadhana eh.
  January 23, 2010 at 01:04 am report abuse
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  veronica11
  40. @cza921: it sucks, right? I hope you'll find my thoughts and recollections inspiring. I'm the girl who lived to tell. Heartbreak and unrequited love couldn't get any real that this one. I try to write the knitty gritty details we don't read about in books with happily ever afters :(
  January 23, 2010 at 01:03 am report abuse
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  veronica11
  39. @hazelnutzy: yeah, i couldn't shut up about it diba? :P
  January 23, 2010 at 01:00 am report abuse
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  ayame00
  38. grabe :(
  January 23, 2010 at 12:11 am report abuse
• anne:)
  37. aww...nafefeel ko ung pain..
  January 22, 2010 at 10:32 pm report abuse
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  hazelnutzy
  36. I think I can remember this incident. :P
  January 22, 2010 at 10:23 pm report abuse
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  jhinggay19
  35. korek, it's easier said than done..madali lang sabihin na enough of Matt and move on pero sa totoong buhay, kahit anong gusto natin na piliting mag move on eh mahirap pa rin talaga..di ganun kadali..
  January 22, 2010 at 10:03 pm report abuse
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  summerinparis128
  34. small world tlg V!asar nman kc kakilala mo pa db?@ ex ng ex mo?wheew.
  January 22, 2010 at 08:46 pm report abuse
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  myles_away
  33. @ fatal - yes its easier said than done... but atleast you have to try.
  January 22, 2010 at 08:17 pm report abuse
• cza921
  32. i found out about your blog only a few days ago (yeah, i live under a rock.. hehe) and i'm in the same situation as you are. but only up to the part where 'my matt' leaves me hanging after i told him about my feelings. and as much as it hurts to think it, i'm still here, 'high and dry'.. well, you know what, i think finding out that he's going out with another girl is actually better than being left hanging and not knowing what he thinks of you. at least now you have a tangible reason to firm up your resolve to move on.
  January 22, 2010 at 07:54 pm report abuse
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  fatalframe
  31. hahaha myles, i'm sure it's always easier said than done. :(
  January 22, 2010 at 05:30 pm report abuse
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  yanipot
  30. Youch... What a coincidence... Ang sakit naman nun. :(
  January 22, 2010 at 02:41 pm report abuse
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  myles_away
  29. enough of Matt V! :)
  January 22, 2010 at 02:37 pm report abuse
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  veronica11
  28. Hi girls! Yeah...ironic diba? Sa dinami dami ng babae, bakit si Gia (not her real name) pa. small, small world. Take note, Matt and Cary don't know each other. It's just a freaky coincidence that Matt ended up with Gia. And another thing, Gia is an artist like me. Brrr....freaky!
  January 22, 2010 at 02:36 pm report abuse
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  miss_techylicious
  27. ouch... oh V... i feel for you... but i promise a ray of sunlight will surely come and hit you with a new love in your arms. you deserve someone better than that man. cheer up. =)
  January 22, 2010 at 02:32 pm report abuse
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  Myrajoy
  26. oh my ang sakit!!!!!!!!!!!!!....im hurt V...He is such a loser..You deserve something better than him V..
  January 22, 2010 at 02:18 pm report abuse
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  jhinggay19
  25. OMG! that hurts soooo much! I can feel the pain!
  January 22, 2010 at 02:09 pm report abuse
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  summerinparis128
  24. ouch to highest level :(
  January 22, 2010 at 01:30 pm report abuse
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  malditcha87
  23. Ouch. I feel what you feel right now. And I wish you will give it up this time. Stop wasting your time with that loser! Enough is enough V!
  January 22, 2010 at 12:55 pm report abuse
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  chinky_baguette
  22. sometimes it really takes a second or even third time for us to realize that some relationship are not worth the fight
  January 22, 2010 at 12:31 pm report abuse
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  myles_away
  21. Go to Sam V! Sam will surely listen...cry your heart out, tell him what's on your mind after this incident. I'm sure he's not going to take advantage on the situation, it's proven... He's not just a guy... but a REAl friend to you.
  January 22, 2010 at 12:21 pm report abuse
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  lady sairi
  20. ohh shoot! ouch yan.. tsk tsk.. atleast you know now what his silence means.. :(
  January 22, 2010 at 11:58 am report abuse
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  shirleylim26
  19. I just hope napanood nya ang THE Rebound ....
  January 22, 2010 at 11:31 am report abuse
• amanda_20
  18. gosh..this is so familiar..why do guys always fall for the same girls..this already happened to me twice..i had to ex bfs who courted the same girl after we broke up..don't know if this is a coincidence or what..
  January 22, 2010 at 10:49 am report abuse
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  amie1985
  17. wag muna mag-sam. move on muna. mahirap ang rebound. :)
  January 22, 2010 at 10:30 am report abuse
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  fishbowl84
  16. that is so painful :( sometimes though, we just have to let it go..
  January 22, 2010 at 10:11 am report abuse
• pat
  15. awww.. sad..:(
  January 22, 2010 at 10:08 am report abuse
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  laranessfabella
  14. so sad =(
  January 22, 2010 at 09:56 am report abuse
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  jayn000
  13. letting go of someone or something is part of our life. we can learn from that experience.
  January 22, 2010 at 09:14 am report abuse
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  prettylass8831
  12. It's hard to let go of someone you really love.
  January 22, 2010 at 08:57 am report abuse
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  charm1021
  11. SAM!
  January 22, 2010 at 08:48 am report abuse
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  shirleylim26
  10. letting go means loving someone!
  January 22, 2010 at 08:31 am report abuse
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  myles_away
  9. solid Sam! :)
  January 22, 2010 at 08:26 am report abuse
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  rose17
  8. "You win. I give up" you know, sometimes giving up doesn't mean we're weak, it only means we're strong enough to finally let go. :p It's an old line
  January 22, 2010 at 07:35 am report abuse
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  alizey
  7. YEAH! TEAM SAM .. what team r u? :DD
  January 22, 2010 at 03:37 am report abuse
• Daphne
  6. Aw! Ouch! Aray!
  January 22, 2010 at 02:27 am report abuse
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  darriane
  5. ouch, that hurts
  January 22, 2010 at 01:45 am report abuse
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  retz
  4. gosh! sakit nun.
  January 22, 2010 at 01:24 am report abuse
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  adolina
  3. it hurts...but now you can move on... TEAM SAM all the way! :)
  January 22, 2010 at 12:25 am report abuse
• poison_ivy12
  2. ...OMG!...that really really hurts!
  January 22, 2010 at 12:16 am report abuse
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  myles_away
  1. ouch! I told you V... go for Sam! hahaha Solid Sam! :)
  January 22, 2010 at 12:03 am report abuse

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