Nothing can ever prepare a mother-to-be for the loss of a child, and for Heart Evangelista, she will never be the same following her 2018 miscarriage.
While guesting on Fast Talk With Boy Abunda, the actress and fashion influencer opened up about that time in her life and how her mom had been a big influence on her growing up.
"In the beginning, I must say—kasi ako yung bunso sa pamilya namin, e—and my mom was very like, hardcore in terms of kailangan perfect ka, kailangan ganyan ka," Heart said. "So having a baby wasn’t really a priority for me kasi I had always been trained to be a go-getter, hardworking, no vacations, so nung time na 'yon, takot ako mabuntis even if I was married."
Heart went on to emphasize how grateful she is that even for a short period in her life, being a mother-to-be made her realize a lot of things about herself.
"But when I got pregnant, I didn’t realize how much I wanted it so badly. And it changed me a lot because I didn’t think I would be a good mom. I didn’t think that I wanted to be a mom. But that’s something that I’m very thankful for, that even for a brief moment in my life, I realized that I can be a better person and not necessarily that you have to give birth or not necessarily that you have to physically be a mom, but the idea and what my angels made me feel? Good enough for me."
It was in May 2018 when Heart announced that she and Chiz were expecting twins, however, they had to say goodbye as one of the embryos was smaller and underdeveloped. In the following month, she confirmed that she had miscarried the remaining child, whose name was "Mira".
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Asked by Boy if she would still want to be a mother, Heart responded, "I don’t know. Honestly, I don’t know. If I’ll be a mom, why not? I remember at that time, pinagdasal ko na, 'Find your way back to me in any form' and for me, hindi ko pinipilit yung mga bagay-bagay. I don’t allow myself to be heartbroken dahil may bagay na hindi binigay sa 'kin because I’m always grateful."
Watch Heart's interview here:
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