Lindsay Lohan has admitted she was in an abusive relationship with her estranged fiancé Egor Tarabasov.
The 30-year-old's love affair with her wealthy Russian beau hit headlines after footage of her allegedly being assaulted by Tarabasov on a beach in Mykonos, Greece, and again on the balcony of their flat in London, England, surfaced online.
The incidents both occurred in July, and in both the Mean Girls actress appears to have been physically assaulted by her now estranged Russian lover in arguments about his mobile phone.
Now, Lindsay has claimed in an interview with British newspaper The Mail on Sunday that Tarabasov had attacked her before.
"I realize now you can't stay in a relationship just for love," she explained. "No woman can be hit and stay with that person if that person isn't prepared to say sorry."
The actress went to stay with a friend in France after the fight in London, during which police were called by worried neighbors after Lindsay was filmed screaming for help while arguing with Tarabasov.
She tearfully said of the incident, "When we got home I went to bed and Egor went out. A few hours later he came back and when I woke up he was standing over me. He wasn't himself, he was being very aggressive and he attacked me."
Lindsay said she was now worried what Tarabasov would do to her, or himself, and confessed to feeling unsafe. "I genuinely fell in love with him but he broke my trust and made me feel unsafe,” she admits.
"It's (the incident in London) not the first time. That's the problem. But this time, someone saw. I didn't call anyone, I've dealt with enough police in LA. I just left the house and went to the Connaught (Hotel) for the night.
"I've spent the past week fishing on my friend Marco Mavilla's yacht with his lovely family in Sardinia. I've been meditating and swimming in the ocean and listening to George Michael's song, 'Faith'. The lyrics are very apt," she shared.
Still wearing the four-carat emerald ring Tarabasov proposed with last September, Lindsay said, "I haven't taken it off, even after all this. The truth is, I wanted to make things work, but now I'm not sure that I can."
Revealing her now abandoned wedding plans, she said, "We planned to marry in Lake Como next May (2017) . We should both be in Italy looking at wedding venues right now. All I wanted was to get married and settle down. I've always wanted four kids and Egor and I talked about having a family."
Lindsay told the newspaper she has tried to reach out to Tarabasov to reconcile, but holds out little hope of them rekindling their relationship.