The former Wondergirls and 4Minute member revealed she's actually battling depression, panic disorder, and vasovagal syncope, a condition wherein she faints whenever she's triggered with emotional stress.
She started off the post saying how thankful she is that she's been given so many career opportunities since she was young, but as she grew older, she started to feel the intense pressure. This was when she realized there was something wrong.
"Time went on and after my debut, I became an adult, and I thought I needed to take responsibility for everything I do, I thought I shouldn’t make any mistakes, and I wanted to be someone that was everyone’s choice. Because of that ambition, I just looked straight ahead and kept running. I didn’t know I was sick."
She initially shrugged it off and said to herself that it was okay, but not until she got hospitalized in 2016. She couldn't believe it when she was diagnosed with depression and panic disorder.
Although she would get treatment for these mental health conditions every two weeks, something else happened: Her vision would get foggy and she would collapse. She would later find out this was vasovagal syncope.
HyunA was anxious thinking about how her fans would react if they knew she was sick, so she kept it a secret.
"I was lost and it seemed I had no options," she wrote. "I wanted to be on stage, but I was worried that if I kept falling down like this often, if people knew that I’m sick, then maybe people wouldn’t want to have me perform. Since I was worried about that, I didn’t want to tell anyone."
When she would keep fainting, she felt so bad for her sponsors and fans that she decided that it was time to be honest about everything. She ended her post with a powerful message on self-love.
"I’m going to keep bravely trying to be well, but I think people can’t be perfect. I think it’s not too late and I’m going to love myself and take care of myself. I’m going to be courageous and honest like I am now."
Following the deaths of f(x)'s Sulli and Goo Hara, fans have expressed concern on the mental, physical, and emotional wellbeing of K-Pop stars, as well as on the amount of pressure and criticism that these are constantly subjected to.
South Korea's lawmakers are pushing for a bill called the "Sulli Act," which seeks to protect public figures from malicious comments online.